What makes me smile these days?  Realizing there are countless things in life worth smiling about especially during the holidays…family, friends, food and fun!

FAMILY: Feeling blessed with being pregnant with my second child despite the circumstances especially since there are many others who struggle with fertility issues.  Having the best 12 year old kid who always lands on Santa’s nice list.  Hopefully this tradition continues in years to come!

FRIENDS: Having a handful of friends who I can rely on and trust.  I may not have a lot of friends but the select group I have, I know I can count on and vice versa.

FOOD: It may not qualify as food but Starbucks peppermint mocha in those cute red cups puts me instantly in the holiday spirit!  Yummy!!

FUN: Watching holiday classics with my son like Frosty the Snowman and Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.  Our other favorites are Home Alone, Home Alone 2 and Elf…so funny!

These are some of the little things in life that makes me stop and say to myself, things aren’t so bad after all.  It’s just a matter of OWNing a positive perspective!



Inspiration can come from anywhere.  Today it came to me of all places from a reality show!  Although the show aired yesterday, I DVR-ed the latest episode of the show “The Biggest Loser” and decided to settle in after dinner to watch it with my son.  This episode featured the contestants running a full marathon!  It was amazing and awe-inspiring to sit and witness each contestant’s individual transformation on an emotional, mental and physical level.  To watch in retrospect where the contestants came from to their current strength and resolve in running a marathon was very moving especially since this season included men and women varying in age from young to old.  Despite being pregnant and in relatively good health, I can’t even imagine completing a 26.2 mile run so to see both the young and old take on the challenge and accomplishing this goal was incredible.  I was so proud and excited for each of the contestants as if I personally knew every one of them.  “The Biggest Loser” is a great show to share and experience with my son as it teaches us to have the belief and faith in ourselves and OWN our inner spirit.


Regardless of one’s ethical or religious beliefs, there are several strong opinions out there regarding abortion vs. adoption concerning unplanned and unwanted pregnancies for both parents and single parents alike.  Already a single mother myself to a preteen boy, I will admit that I have considered both alternatives when I first found out I was pregnant at the age of 38 with another child since I was expected to go through it alone for a second time.

At first I agonized over the moral decision to terminate my pregnancy but after many waking hours and sleepless nights of thinking it through, I realized I couldn’t go through with this procedure although my ex, CS, and the father of my unborn child expressed he wanted me to.  I ended up making the decision that was best for me which by some standards, defied conventional wisdom and practical logic.  Despite varying viewpoints from family and friends in support of or to the contrary, I had to make my OWN personal choice.  Ultimately I had to live with the path I decided to take.

Adoption was also another possible option I pondered.  Since I knew abortion wasn’t right for me, I thought that maybe giving my daughter up for adoption in the hopes she will have a better life growing up with a family who can provide her with more opportunities would be a loving and selfless act.  I recognize that not only did I need to make a decision that was right for me, I also needed to make one that was in the best overall interest for my daughter.  Again, I reasoned with myself to come up with the correct solution to my dilemma.  In doing so, I concluded there is no right answer when it comes to matters of the heart.  I may not be able to provide my children with the materialistic wealth that comes from a dual income household but I know I can and will provide them with a warm and caring environment together with unconditional love and devotion.  In the end, love is what makes all the difference.